One of my favourite lyrics is found in a song by the Lumineers. The song is called “Stubborn Love” and the line is, “the opposite of love is indifference.” A quick Google search traces this quote to a man called Elie Wiesel. Born in 1928, he is a novelist, political activist, and Holocaust survivor of Hungarian Jewish descent.
When I first heard the song, I really connected with this lyric. I reflected upon my own experiences of being in love and recognised that once I had moved on, I felt neither love nor hatred. I stopped caring. I was indifferent.
If one regards individual emotions as being on a spectrum then surely the opposite of love is complete lack of love. Hatred is a completely different emotion. At one end is extreme hatred and at the other is no hatred at all.
So does this mean that to completely heal, one must remove all feelings of hatred and all feelings of love? For hatred yes, but for love – no. Removing all feelings of love would lead to indifference and a compassion-less state. Such a state is unloving and unkind. As we discussed in my last blog, if compassion is the path to happiness, such states of indifference can never bring us true peace.
Even if emotions are indeed separate entities one cannot deny the effect of one emotion on another one. For example, when we’re excited it is easy to become irritated. When we are bored it’s easy to become sad. What’s more, the more excited we are the more likely we are to get irritated and the more bored we are the more likely we are to become sad. It’s as if the exaggeration of emotions leaves us vulnerable to the negative expression of the same energy.
Could this idea be applied to compassion? If compassion is the path to happiness then is it not a logical deduction that the suppression of compassionate feelings can lead to unhappiness? Does the trapped energy of compassion manifest itself as anger, frustration and helplessness – the symptoms of depression?
Could this be a reason why rates of depression among medical students are higher than in their age-matched peers? Could it be that medical students tend to naturally have higher levels of compassion than others and hence are more likely to have suppressed levels?
WHY WOULD WE SUPPRESS COMPASSION?
We spend our lives doing things that bring us immediate pleasure. Whether it’s alcohol, drugs, sex or food, we are driven by our desires. Our drives for these things are so strong that often they become addictions. How then is it possible that we suppress feelings of compassion if giving others compassion gives us an immediate buzz and is fundamental to long term happiness?
I think it is a sad reflection of the society in which we live. For example, I often pass homeless people on my way to the hospital. Every time I see them I feel compassion towards them, yet, only occasionally do I stop to talk or give them some money. The fact is, I feel embarrassed. I’m self-conscious. I fear the eyes of passers by. I don’t know how to handle the gratitude of the homeless person. Each time this happens, compassion is suppressed within me. And how do I feel later? Frustrated and angry.
In medical school I often find it difficult to express the compassion I feel for patients. Not only am I embarrassed by the eyes of onlookers, but I am also aware of my limitations as a medical student and my inability, whether competent or not, to treat them medically.
WHAT CAN WE DO?
I think we have to be brave. When we feel compassion and there aren’t any barriers [besides our own reservations] we should act. When we feel compassion but there are unavoidable barriers we should do what we can, and accept that we can only give us much compassion as we are able. I think there are plenty of situations in life where we can express compassion to offset the suppression encountered at other times.
And as I started by discussing love I’d like to finish with it too. I often wonder why we feel so strongly about certain individuals. Why do we feel compelled to give greater compassion towards them than to others in our lives? Is compassion part of falling in love? Is this why being in love brings us great happiness? Is this why it can bring us such anguish?
And what about those times when we have to let someone go or give them space? What do we do with our feelings of compassion? To be truly compassionate is to do what’s right for them, even if the most compassionate thing is to do nothing. But why doesn’t this make us feel happy? Why are we left with a such an unexpressed pool of compassion? Because we’re not perfect. We all have our own weaknesses but in having the strength to give compassion, despite our own pain, we can take great strength. And we must remember, there are many millions of other people in the world willing to accept our compassion. Just walk down the street. If you feel compassion, give compassion. It’s the act that expresses the emotion. It’s the act that cultivates feelings of happiness. Happiness may come from within, but we can’t get there alone.
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Compassion isn’t abouts acts, it’s about intention. Sometimes the most compassionate thing to do is to do nothing.